There was a time in my life when people asked me if I was ok in my world. It was a question that was asked frequently in my early twenties when things were a bit bumpy. This question usually annoyed me and I would either take it one of two ways: defensively or the flippant, “Yes, I’m wonderful!”. Mind you the people that were asking me were the members of my family. It never occurred to me that they were worried about the paths I was taking and that they knew me so well they could see through any defiance or fakery.
This awareness that you get when you get older is amazing. The wisdom you gain gives you the power to heal. Not just others but more importantly, yourself. You learn to forgive yourself for the stupid shit you did when you were 18 i.e. get married. You learn that you have to own the things you cannot change. You learn grace and become graceful to others.
This is not a case of the “I wish I knew then what I know now”. I am happy I cannot change my past because my path has led me here with a much clearer view of what’s ahead.
Everyone has their own path but it is the people in your world who make you who you are. My family has never given up on me, although I’ve noticed that the questions have stopped now that I am older. But if they were to ask me today if I was ok, my answer would be “Undeniably blissful, thank you.”
